Saturday, March 12, 2011

Thursday, March 3, 2011

HAPPY SWEET 16 Madison Raylea !!!!

Sixteen years ago, today, there was ice on the ground in Nocona, Tx. I was twenty-three years old, and had a new-born baby attached to my boob, like a little piglet, snortin', and rootin', and tootin', and I was the happiest I think I've ever been up to that point!!! She was all I ever wanted!!!! A little girl I could raise, and teach, and sing to, and read to, braid her hair, polish her toenails, play with...and I have had all those things with her... and I love her madly!!! Of course, she makes me crazy too, that's normal I guess, she is a teenager...soooo, last night, my Mommy and I stayed up until 11:00, baking and decorating about 67 cupcakes, and I delivered to her school this morning. She met me in the office, and she had the biggest, pearly-white smile, and I was instantly filled with more love ... how is that possible??? It's hard to watch them change ...from the little person that wanted to hold my hand, and wanting to be just like me, wanting "to marry you when I grow up Mommy!!"... to this independent, self-sufficient, young woman... It's bizarre really...the little person isn't even there anymore, it's like she is gone... and has been re-cast by this grown-up girl... I feel as if I have only two children now... truly... I'm just here for support, should she need me...and to be her prayer-warrior... HAPPY SWEET 16 MY LITTLE MADI!!! Mommy loves you!

Wednesday, March 2, 2011

Note to self....

DO NOT LET A TEN-YR-OLD WEAR YOUR SHOES TO SCHOOL!!!! I have sand in between all of my toes today.and it doesn't feel wonderful!!!!
My Madi will be 16 tomorrow...kind of saddens me...she seems more of a woman than my little girl, it's hard to watch... she will get her license in a week...PRAY FOR ME!!!
Wyatt is hyper...VERY HYPER...none of my girls are, I've never experience this before...it's teaching us all patience, and I've become quite good at blocking out the noise, which isn't always a good thing!
Paige is engaged, AGAIN...to someone none of us have met, but he sounds like an ok guy...he is going to Iraq, and leaving her on the base in Killeen in a month...sooooo, PRAY for her as well...
As for me...eh, I've been better...I got super-bad depressed this winter, trying to overcome it...PRAY for me too!!! ILY whoever may be reading this!
XOXO